Okay, let's not do this exercise. What you need to do is you want energy to create, you need good energy to create. So you want to retain as much of your energy as you can. So this when I do this exercise now, and the other thing that this is what I do is I have a, you know, block and take people out of my phone because that's an energetic right connection. I'll take them out of my phone, I'll block them on Facebook, I'll have I have to get rid of the connection of how they coming in. As well as saying, What do I have to do?

Why do I have to change so I don't create this again. So you asked a lot of good questions, but I'll always give that same answer. What do I have to change in me so I'm a better creator. And that is exactly why people go Risa you different. It different this year than last year and the year before. And yes, the people that have seen me back couple of years, two centers on her 13th she's doing she 1313 seven day live trainings.

13 SATs tomorrow. Yeah. She's the goddess of goddesses. And she's changed to she's done this journey of transformation because if we are always looking at what is in our jar, and changing that, so we get better outcomes and it's a continual journey, just as I if anyone realizes and has done pot, the journey you realize it's a continual journey of getting real started. Tapping into now waking up. Yeah, waking up to everything.

So by doing this list here is anybody want to talk about that? So I can anyone have an interesting experience doing this list? Yes. What happened with you, Andrew, I have this patent. Anytime I go out somewhere socially, there's always some issue with food. So for example, I'm a passionate 3d.

I used to be a chef, and I'm very passionate about good quality food. I never look at the prices of food, but every time I'm out in a social situation, there's some drama with it. So yesterday, I ordered my food. I ordered what I thought, well, what did I got served last and it wasn't what I ordered, really. And it always shows up particularly in these workshops, your patterns, and she didn't get what she wanted. She doesn't get what she wants.

There is your message. Is that true? Yes. You don't get what you want. Because you don't give yourself what you want and you allow people to give you not give you what you want. Far out brussel sprouts so it will hit you in the face.

Yeah, I don't give myself what I want and I don't hold people accountable to make sure that they give me what I want because I'm catering to them. She's a chef, she's always catering to the other person. A chef cooks for the other person. They say I want this meal and she will cook it she gives them but with her meal back when she wants to push. Oh, yes. Ah, yes.

I like like it's hidden. Yeah. Yeah. So make sure you you acquire people to give you what you want. And then you'll get the right meal when it's served. In other words, it'll start reflecting, but as so great, don't you love that is the universe.

You're talking to it? It's talking to you. Yes. So what I realize is I don't get my energy from people very little. You don't get your energy from, you know, General you know how people like somebody would uplift you? Yes.

Yes. I get it from the courses the some get it I'm getting it from like not so that's that should be a problem. Yes. Because it's courses and it's it's, you know books and it is music Yes. Meditation yeah but that's how yes for my son Yes. But I'm looking at my life and I think my daughter is amazing and lovely but you know she she really so it's not that I've got nobody Yes, my son, one of my sons was just loving and giving so yes being with him makes me fear.

We as As for the rest, yes and other. You know, I love your honesty, Isabel and I love your epiphany because you kind of had that little conversation before about this when you did essential And so you you've noticed now you don't connect with people because of your childhood, your abuse, I get it. So now this will be a door opening to say, you know what, I want to create a connection now because I find with friends my that's why I don't have friends in my mind I bet has a bit better. My question is, do you want connections? Are you saying you want connections? Or will you just tell me as it's just something that you observed?

Do you want connections up to a certain point I would have said no because we knew that depleted my oil if your partner's always been in friendships that you always like, you know, you become the leader and everybody you know, wants stuff from you. And that was my pattern. Yeah. So I looked at that now. So now I don't want that I just cut it right because you So what, what's your question to me? Just tell me your question.

So my question is, you know, how do I even know what I really want because I've so long had not a disconnect, but lack Not a need of when you wanted. Don't know, you don't know what you want. When you get when you get properly connected, and you get your listen to your needs, your your body will say, I would like closer friendships. Because people actually have the most source energy. They're the ones who are most the most. We actually feed off love.

And the more people we have around us that are loving more food, we get more energized, we feel so you've learned to survive without love in that childhood. And you've been doing it but you've been feeding yourself getting little bits and pieces and you know you've got your children, but you have way more expansion when you decide to connect with more people that are loving, and you give that back. So you don't even know because you've never had it. Yes. So now you're going well, maybe I'll try it. Maybe I'll Expand.

Maybe I might love somebody maybe my Kinect. Yeah, Bobby in the open. Thank you. All right. Anyone else want to make any comments on what lists they just got? But they're not doing this type of work.

So yes, they're you know, the beautiful people around you right love you, but they're not actually working. Yes. So your question, the question is, Do you find that difficult to find them difficult relationships or do you what what's the question I do find them difficult but then you see a side of them that they really should be loving. So you have this this? I The question is, yes, you got these loving people around, right? And they are beautiful people.

But they've got all these boxes that they have they put aside Yeah, just okay people. I mean, up to you. It's up to you your weight up and then you go are given less time, or, or I just focus on that loving bit. I mean, I have my mother who is gonna love it. She's always been my rock. But it's been a lot of time with her.

And it's been a long time with her. Well, I just don't I feel comfortable around it. Because then she'll go off and she just says the same old thing. And, and also, as I just said, I've created a life where I don't need her, but I will visit her so now it's a neutral relationship. No, I do well, too. I know I don't do duty.

No, I don't. I don't No, no, no, I admit, I'm not manipulated. No, no, no, I do it. She's my rock because of all the people in my entire life. No matter how mad I've got, because I've gotten sworn into the atomic guy, cuz she wanted she wanted admit my abuse. And I remember as a teenager I went nuts because I couldn't stand the abuse.

And then I went crazy. And she thinks that and she'll always tell that story that almost a crazy teenager and I made her suffer. Yeah, she told her and I, so she's even so I've been overseas and I've had no money no matter what. She's the only rock I've ever had. So I know no matter. So she does love me in her way.

And she's not actually a bad person. She's disconnected. And, and nice to be here. Nice to be like this. Oh, well, I when I was a moment, and I was very sacrificial, and I just helped her and I'd be there for the Christmas dinners and cooking dinners. I just be giving, giving, giving.

And then I wouldn't be recognizing I had any feelings. And then when I start to wake up, I've got feelings and I start to go, you know didn't care about my feelings. And you don't. She's just so doesn't because she probably doesn't care about her own that much. So my mom is my rock in a way that even in her dysfunctional state, she loves me and she cares for me and she does want me to be happy. She's not a mean person, which is what I like.

She's not mean she's not jealous. She's just dysfunctional, and unaware. So I visit her maybe once every six months. Sometimes a year. We might speak three times a year on the phone. It's the same we just lately take off where we left off.

And my sister send email once a year, Chima, she contacts me, they don't want me they want me to come over. So it's not a bear relationship. I'm just like, I'm used to my life as it is. And I have I don't, you don't fit in my life, because you feel too out of sync because you know, I can see if she was sitting in this room, she'd be looking at me laughing and then she'd be coming up all the reasons why she'd always be back on blaming me, you know what I mean? But I, my mom taught me some great things. She taught me not to care about what other people think.

So that's been my freedom. And she's also said to me when I was a child, she's to go well, as long as you're happy, so she gave me permission to follow my happiness, which is my inner feelings. So in that respect, that's been she's been the gift in that way. And I so that's my relationship, no animosity, no nothing. I've resolved it. It's taken me a long time because I would go over there and there were times where I would just be crying.

And I would hide it she wouldn't see it and I was just sold this pain. And I've told her I don't want I told her not to say, to tell me that she doesn't believe that my dad did that. I've, you know, asked her things and so forth. And so, but I've passed that now. I've got I've, you know, it's taken years. So now, I think once every six months.

She means well, she's she's actually a very kind person. She's actually she's quite a celebrity back in Bentley. And she's an Avon Rep. Yeah. She's been an Avon rep for I think 37 years. And I texted her and I said, Oh, how you feeling about I talked in her language? How you feeling about Avon?

You know, not Avon announcing on the news. So they're like going under, and I thought, you know what I thought awesome because I test on animals cuz I told her. I said, I'm not wanting to be your stuff anymore. They test on animals. And I think you guys are all devastated like everybody else. But you know, so I don't know that so that was her.

That was her social life. She's very social. Sorry No, no she'll feel about something else. No, no, she doesn't see she doesn't see the value in me. All right. So now Okay, all right, let's do this exercise.

Who wants to come up and release the crap? All right, who hasn't been up who hasn't been up? I'm not gonna force anybody. All right, so you look reluctant while you're elected Amanda. Just one I've written down of what depletes my energy. Yeah, from other people.

He's actually things that I do as well, right? Oh, yes. Oh, I love that. That's a no, no, no, no, I love that. Can I just say something? I love your honesty.

And she said this, the things that people take her energy that the list of things of people that take her energy are the things she does to others. And I love that because I'm going to tell you something about that whole thing. If people take your energy and are using your energy, you are empty, right? So fear of function and do your job and do whatever you got, you got to go get that energy from somebody else. So you will be a taker in some way or someone else's energy. That is just how it works.

Otherwise you you're like, operating on zero, otherwise you end up in, in bed sick. So you grab it from someone else's energy. So that's a great answer. Sir I mean that mean boy, Tiffany kind of thing. That's, I'm glad you saw that. And that's how that works.

So that's why I watch people that are big sacrifices, because sacrifices if they're around me, that love to give, I might do stuff for me and I love to give, but at some point they want it from me. But I asked him to give and I know they'll they'll get mad at me. So I didn't ask for that but he giving and then they deplete it because I gave too much and they not just do with me they'll do it to others. So they really like she hasn't given it back. Now I'm mad. Now I'm dying because I've given it all out now I've got tired and I'm mad.

That's kind of how it works. So you know those that go and do it for nothing? Give I give to everybody. Then and ask for it though. I didn't ask Do I put volunteering as a watch or when you do volunteer work? Yes, absolutely.

I've done volunteer work by joshy don't appreciate it very much. Just because it's free. Yeah, it's free. Alright, so hang on with it. Well, hang on. We're back on Amanda to get it out.

So say Do you want to come up? It's up to you. Okay. All right. We'll come up. We're going to you're going to do this exercise after we do, Amanda, so I'll show you how this works.

In fact, yes, get your list. Okay. Now, Amanda, is a bit of a little bit of a mover with energy, right? Some tickers to see you jotting in this one. When we take out let's just see if she has any Move, move. So what you're going to say is your name so we're going to read with the pink and then we're going to read that affirmation and then you start naming everything that depletes your energy when it goes to insert person or thing I'm gonna get my glasses alright so got it you got to like you know I got to get put some energy in it for energy for this to be energized Alright, so I Amanda so you just say it right here.

You don't need to repeat it because you can read it. Okay. I Manda, choose to release cancel and remove all implant cords, attachment hooks and close down courthouse and connections softening for taking my energy from Cassandra Kareena Christina, Chantel Anna. They're unhappy. In this life, they're complaining. They're not standing up on their own two feet and relying on others for their stress, very anxious.

Complain all the time. I choose to actually I choose to be free. I choose to be free to retain my own energy to feel you know, I you Yeah. Right here. It gets you right here, right right here. Yep, yep, yep.

To fully Connect, sovereign and free right from this point forward. Okay, so now we're going to shake it out. Hey, give me a book. Shake it out. And we can like brush it off, you brush it off you. I'm going to show you what you're gonna do individually in a minute.

Now jumping down I got really really hot. Really off. got hot, hot and dizzy. Yeah. Yeah, like cutting off. It's like been mixed.

It's been part of you. Yeah. They've been sucking from you. Yeah. Right. What are you feeling now?

I'm still dizzy. really dizzy. Yeah, yeah. Okay, just breathe in US breathe and we'll get your nice and aligned. Oops, Oops. Oops.

Oops. Okay. centering of Yeah, cussing. Yep. Good. You're good.

So good. Release. There's a lot of you're very Ashley, you're actually you're very porous, but you've disconnected in some ways so people can't get in. I mean, but you kind of like compartmentalize the way you disconnect but you're also highly connected. And this is why you are like this is why you you will get you healed inside and then get you more particular about the energy because you react to energy. In fact, I met you the first time I don't know when that was but you are far more connected than when I met you.

I don't know when it was was the first time we met. I met you to heal on healing on me in Box Hill. Okay, the free event. Yeah. Okay, the free event more about you because I saw you run a DVD and because you jumped in, right. Well that I thought I need to meet you thought I'm a jumper too.

I did. I need to meet you to understand more about you. Right? And yes, I ended up. I wasn't planning on getting a healing, but I end up getting a healing on you. Because when I met you when you were healing other people, I was jumping, right?

Was that the first time he jumped? Or you know, you're just jumping in the audience? Yes. I was jumping in the audience when you're healing other people and my head was spinning and right. Yeah. Yes.

So how do you feel now since then? Do you feel any different? I'm still on a journey. Yes. I've learned more about myself. Yeah.

And I learnt a lot. Did I tell you a disconnected back then? You said I was fragmented. Right. And it was very much about cost lives. Yeah.

And I needed to learn I need to study here. I need to study right. Good. Well, hey, you are you? I am. Yeah, it is the journey.

Are you aligned now? You feel like okay, I'm feeling a lot. Nice. Breathe in, breathe in and breathe out. I'm very quick. You can give me a hug.

Sorry. No, no, no, I'm good. No. Thank you.