Hello, now I'd like to show you the true story of how I received my Canadian goose animal Totem. So when I was young well actually I was born with a very deep connection to nature. And that was actualized by my father who took me duck hunting when I was a young child. And so that was my first experiences of nature, which were deeply profound and fascinating for me. And so as I got older, like into my early late teens in my early 20s, I was still very passionate about hunting. And so one time I was out hunting for ducks, and you know, when you got duck hunting the the big prize that you can get the trophy of the duck hunters actually get a goose there.

It's rare to get one and they're big, so it's a big trophy animal. So as I was walking along, out hunting, I was walking along this river is very flat meandering river. This kind of wide open grass area and it was really foggy. It was the fog was really thick was probably in November, and the visibility was maybe 20 or 30 yards at the most. And so here I am walking kind of along this river, and I hear this goose honking in the flock. It's flying by.

And I knew immediately it was lost. It had been separated from its flock and was trying to find its family. And so I had a goose call. And so I call to the goose with my goose call. And it started honking back to me. So we started this conversation.

And I could hear the goose in the fog but I could not see it. And I could hear that it had flown past me and then when it heard my goose call it turned around and came back. So it was coming back to me. I could hear it coming closer and closer to me. In the fog as we were honking back and forth, and then as it got closer and closer, I raised my gun. And this goose appeared out of the fog about 30 feet away.

Its wings were locked, and its feet were out because he thought it was going to come join his family. And I shot it. So the goose fell from the sky and hit the ground and between me and the goose, there was an old barbed wire fence, and the goose came down and landed and kind of ended up butting up against the the fence post that was there. So it was laying on the ground, kind of butted up against this fence post laying on its stomach. And so I walked up to this goose and when I got there, it was still alive. In this goose looked up at me and I looked down at the goose And I watched it die.

So, you know, I got to see it tickets last breath. And so when that happened, two things happened to me. One, I felt terrible. I felt like an innocent goose murderer, which I essentially was. And I never hunted again after that. And then I also felt at that moment that this energy or the spirit, or whatever it was, from this goose came into my body.

And this is before I knew anything about meditation and healing spirituality, energy or anything. So I had, you know, I didn't know what happened. But one thing I did know is by the end of that day, I knew what an animal Totem was, and that has stuck with me until this very day. So now anytime I see a flock of geese, or I see a goose anywhere, and sometimes I see them in very unusual situations and at times that are very meaningful for me. But whenever I see them, I don't know I have this feeling of like Doom or like there's gonna be some grand act of retribution against me. Instead, I feel very calm, and I feel very connected.

And I feel like I belong. So it's in a very deep and profound experience. And so whenever I see them I have this just a small experience that life has to offer that's very precious. And I feel extremely grateful. So so those are my protecting spirits that Canadian geese and that's how I met my animal Totem.