In this section we will learn about our internal GPS and about trauma. How do we form our identity? When we come into this world, as little babies, or even before that, when we're just little sparks in the sky, and we just were conceived, we come as a blank hard drive with nothing written on it. All our formative experiences, all those things that we experience from the time that we are conceived, even with inside our mother's womb, until approximately age five or seven, depending on who you go by. All those first things that we see, hear, feel, smell or taste are recorded on this blank hard drive that we have. They're not judged as good.

They're not just as bad. They just are and they're accepted as truth. So for example, if when you were three years old, for whatever reason, your parents told you that a circle was a triangle. You would believe that a circle was a triangle. And when you got to kindergarten or first grade and the teacher told you that a circle was a circle, you would say, No, no, no, no, a circle is a triangle because that's what you learned. It's not judged as true or not true.

It just is. By the same way. If someone really supported you, when you were growing up, when you were that little in those formative years, beat your parent, beat your caretaker, beat your friends, be your nursery school teacher, then for you, it was recorded on your hard drive, that support is what is there, that's what you get. On the other hand, if for whatever reasons, your parents, your caretakers, your grandparents, your aunts and uncles or cousins, your friends, were not so supportive of you. That is what was recorded on your hard drive as well. And that is what you are going to learn how to expect as we'll soon see.

Now the unconscious mind sorts for what is for familiar meaning for what is already written on our hard drive. So let's say your parents were not so supportive to you when you were growing up, let's say for whatever reason, they thought it was much better to teach you the hard way about how to be good and how to do well in school. And they kept telling you that you're a lazy bum, and that you're never going to mount anything if you don't study hard, and you don't do things like that, or just called you lazy bum in general, because you weren't studying hard. Then later on in life, when you come across someone who says, oh, you're amazing, you're doing so well, you hit your hard worker, your unconscious mind will go inside and say, Hmm, does that match what I have in here? Nope. My parents told me I was a lazy bum so I must be a lazy bum.

And you would never believe that you would never accept it. On the other hand, you would attract to yourself all those people who go around telling you what a lazy bum you are, how you never going to mount anything because that is what is familiar. That's what's written on your conscious mind. Now, our formative experiences, those things that recorded on our hard drive become the basis of the programs that we use to run our lives. They are unconscious basis of those programs, we do not even necessarily know that they exist up there. But inevitably, they are what's going to guide us to where we're going.

They are, they are the things that guide us to what we attract into our life. If you ever noticed people sometimes they pick the same partner over and over again, each time different pair of shoes, but in essence, it's the same exact personality, nothing has changed. Now, we are not usually aware that these past experiences form the programs or in our lives. It all happens on an unconscious level. Okay, so when someone talks about your unconscious GPS or how your unconscious Just drives your bus, or how to guide you to where you're going to in life. That's exactly what we're talking about all those formative experiences that are written on your hard drive from the time of conception, even when you understand that even if you don't understand the language, the feeling the tone is still recorded over there.

And that's what we come to expect in life. Now, how exactly do we store memories? So first, let's talk about the grid, which is also the matrix or appropriate set of system. That's the whole area that's around us, including the area inside of us. Okay, the grid part is the area around us or the proprioceptive system, while the part inside of us is inside of our neurology. Our neurology consists of both sections both the outside section, the proprioceptive system, and the inside section deserved full neurology inside our body.

Now, the memory means that we have or our experiences are all stored in our neurology. How do we store them, our five senses act as the pathway through which we allow in and record those memories or those experiences. So, in essence, we use sight we use sound, we use kinesthetics, or feeling, use olfactory, which is smell. And gustatory, which is taste. All those five senses are used to store and record our memories inside. Some people tend to have a stronger sense of sight, or a stronger sense of audio or a stronger sense of kinesthetics, or stronger sense of olfactory, or stronger sense of gustatory, but we all have use of all five systems, and we can strengthen it.

But in general, when we smell something that reminds us of something from our past that acts as a trigger, and it brings up some sort of memory now, even if you Don't remember what the memory is, it still triggered something inside of you. And it might cause you to feel a certain way, it might cause you to do a certain thing, because that is our unconscious mind guides us and attract to us what we hold inside. Now, we usually store our memories in, as I said in one of these combinations with five senses. And as I said before, some of them can be more dominant, some to be less dominant, but they're all there. And we can make small changes in the way we store our memories and they can create big change in our lives. Let's give an example.

Let's take any memory that you have, make it a bad memory because we don't want this to change that actually make it a good memory. Okay, take a good memory and see how you store it. Let's say you see it as a picture. Notice that the picture is black and white or color. Let's say you stored as a sound. Notice where the sound come from knows the toy.

If the sound is how loud it is, notice if it you feel it as a feeling. Notice how the feeling is spelled where in your body you feel the feeling. Let's say to smell or taste do the same thing. Notice how you notice it, where you notice it. What kind of a feeling or taste or smell is it. Now since this is a good memory that we're taking, we want to make it even better.

So let's say you saw it as a movie. Notice what happens when you make that movie much bigger. Does it make you feel better? Does it make it feel worse, if it makes it feel better, keep it bigger. If it makes it feel worse, to inch back to what it was before, maybe make it a little bit smaller. Notice if it was black and white or color.

It was black and white before. Try cutting into color. See what happens if it's better. If it was colored beforehand, see what happens. Make sure it's black and white. If it gets better, leave it as black and white.

If it gets worse. Put it back to being color. If you Notice that it's in the back of you, try moving it to the front of you. Same thing goes for audio, notice what the tone is, try making that tone a little bit stronger, try making a little bit less strong. Try moving where you hear it from what you hear from the left, move it to the right. If you hear from the right over to the left, maybe make it all around you.

Play around with it, and see which ways that you do it, make it sound better, feel better, or smell better, or taste better, and which ones make it worse. But the important point that I'm trying to show you here is that you can make small changes in the way that you stored it. And these small changes can create big changes in your life in terms of what you're going to bring into your life. Because the bigger those things are, the more you're going to track them. The more you focus on it, the more you will attract them. So that's how we store our memories.

Now what exactly is a trauma? A trauma is anything that the nervous system sees as threatening. It can be when you're two years old that someone stole your toy. And that can be extremely traumatic, and it can be going through a total war zone. The important thing we have to remember here is that if beforehand we always thought that trauma had to be something really, really big, like a rape, you were raped, or you were sexually molested, or you went through a warzone. That's not necessarily true.

It's anything that your nervous system deems as threatening to you. So if you were two years old, and your parents want to learn how to go sleep by yourself, and they closed you in a dark room, and you cried in your crib, that can be perceived as a trauma as well. And this I've noticed and seen aside from what I've studied with people, and they've told me, but when we go to things that seem presenting problems that people bring to me as a therapist or as a practitioner, and I take them Deep down in to see where the root cause of this presenting problem is. It's often not anything we would deem as traumatic. But it is something that a two year old would deem as traumatic. And therefore, we just have to redefine what exactly is your trauma.

Now we have to remember also that people who separate trauma are not broken. People who have suffered trauma have a system which is functioning properly, but no one actually taught them how to use this system. Now, if we look at this picture of the year representation, when the trauma begins, we're down here it's zero. As the trauma grows bigger and bigger, it goes up towards the tip. Now right before it hits the tip is to one this down over here a little bit and see better like this. Okay.

T one is a moment before the trauma is resolved. Now what happens is is the unconscious mind does not exactly know what's going to happen. And it's scared. So what it does is right before the trauma is resolved thinking that you might be killed at that point, it takes that trauma and it puts it in container. Now this trauma continues to run an endless loop inside that container, not knowing that in actuality, t zero came, meaning the trauma was resolved, and you made it through. So what it does is you have that trauma inside the container and running an endless loop.

And that is what is actually guiding your unconscious mind. And that's what causes that presenting problem that people come to me in the first place for now, t zero is when the trauma is already resolved. It's the tip and from then it goes back down again. If we hit t zero, we're either dead or we're alive. If we're alive. We made it we survived the trauma.

Now very often, you might have this blank space in between the T one and the T's row. Not knowing exactly how the trauma was resolved, because that part was as if not recorded, it went straight from the T one to the t zero, not really knowing how the trauma was resolved. So that's what those blank memory spots in your memory are. Now, the point of the matter is that we can go inside. And we can change that trauma, right at a time when we really have the resources of how to change the trauma, how to deal with it. If we do not go inside and change the trauma or deal with the trauma at that point, we will overload the system and wreak havoc.

Now, one other thing that you have to remember here is that traumas are stored according to type of trauma. They're not stored in a linear fashion. So in that same container or in that area of the same container, you might have many containers which hold other traumas that are all similar. Or within that same container, it might say, this is a similar trauma, let's stick it inside here. This is a similar trauma, but stick it inside here. And these traumas act almost like an organism of their own that replay over and over and over again.

Now, sometimes I will ask you when doing the work, where do you feel the feeling, and you'll point to someplace in your body or someplace outside of your body. That place that you're pointing to, is the semantic address of the trauma container. Then it might ask you describe to me that what that feeling? Was it feel like what shape does it have? What color does it have? What other attribute does it have?

All those physical attributes that you give me, all that information are actually the physical attributes of the container. Now, as we learn before, we can create small changes by how we see it, how we perceive it, whether we see it big, whether we see it small, whether it's this color, that color, whether it's black and white, whether it's color, or whether the smell is strong, whether the smell is less strong, whether the sound comes from the left or from the right, am I creating these small changes, we create big differences inside what we're holding up there. So by the same token, we can go to the trauma container, and either change how we hold it, meaning, try changing the color of the container, try changing the shape of the container, change the texture of the container, the temperature of the container, or we can actually go into the container.

Back to that first trauma with as our present selves with all the knowledge information that we've gained throughout the years. We can inject that present knowledge into the container number one known that we actually survived, knowing that we made it and that we're now adults and it's okay. And we can then resolve that trauma. And as we resolve it, we let it go, it no longer runs our life, it no longer attract into our life, all the things that we don't want. So, to recap, we come into this world as a blank hard drive. Over experiences are written on this hard drive as truth.

They're not judged. They're just written as truth. They recorded on our hard drive using our five senses is filters that tell our unconscious, how and what to record. These experiences that are recorded on our hard drive form the blueprint through which we run our life. Our neurology stores the traumas we have undergone an unending loop that does not know that the trauma is over and that we survived similar traumas or stories Together nonlinearly we need to redefine our definition of what a trauma is. Fortunately, we have ways in which we can change what is recorded on our hard drive and what we bring into our life.