Hi there, welcome back. So this next section is going to be on, on honoring yourself and what happened to you, either directly to you or even vicariously, because a lot of people who were traumatized were traumatized as a result of having to witness things or feeling hopeless and helpless. So we want you to bear that in mind, because so we will talk later, at some point about that difference between shock and trauma. But remember, helplessness and hopelessness, when you're observing a situation or you cannot escape from it. A lot of children may have witnessed forms of abuse in their home growing up, for instance, that could be part of that. So it's not just about it actually happening directly to yourself, but vicariously as a result of being witness to and oftentimes as a result of not being able to do anything directly about it.

So I would ask you now to consider honoring yourself by making up what I would call your trauma list and I'm going to suggest As to how you can do that, because we could make a mental note of these things. If it's one incident, for instance, okay, you know exactly what it is. But let's say you're someone who's had multiple things happen to you over time, or around you. One of the ways I suggest for people to take a look at that and truly honor themselves fully, is to take a sheet of paper, you know how old you are. But let's say you're 40 years of age and you put to zero meaning. It could even be pre birth trauma that you're aware of.

But so you can go from zero and each line, you mark an age up to your present age. Now, hopefully, many of these lines will be blank and they have nothing attached them. But let's say you had a trauma, say a fairly basic one could be bitten by a dog, but it registered and caused one of those energy packets because it was traumatizing to you. And let's say it happened at nine years of age. So a way you have the line for the age nine you literally just put the word doc so If no one else knew about it, that's fine. But let's say someone took a list or observed the list and you didn't want them to know what it was about, it would just say the word dog and they would have no idea what it's referring to.

But you do. And this, this list is designed to honor yourself and every part of you that has been hurt or traumatized as a result of these reactions. So it can be a physical list, I would urge you to do that rather than just leave it up here. If it's multiple scenes or memories, that majorly impacted you and that you still have some disturbance connected to and what do I mean by disturbance we've talked about that already. Well, it means a perturbation or a trigger. And that can be a trigger for anger and outbursts or suppression or to use cigarettes or or booze or drugs.

It can be a sense of turmoil, flux, it can be physical, it can be emotional, there will usually be one of those reactions attached to it. So that's what I mean about doing that list and honoring yourself. And if there's one incident only great, I hope that's the case for you. But if it's multiple incidents, then please honor yourself. And there may even be more beyond that. But by doing what you know for sure, in other words, we're not asking you to try and go to memories you may not clearly have, there may be underlying things you've forgotten.

Let's work on what you know for sure. Now, I'd remind you that, that there is no need to share this. This is for you privately. If you wish to share it, that's fine. But I would invite you to consider there's a great book that came out recently by a Canadian, Johann Hari is his name, h AR I. It's called chasing the scream.

It's all about addictions. And I love the end result is that he believes that the majority of people who find themselves struggling with addictions, it's as a result of isolation and trauma and you can imagine isolation often comes because we have separated from the authentic self. We living without having written our own script. And obviously, we're the idea behind this is to have you be able to write your own script and therefore live out a life of choice, rather than protection and defense mechanisms. So this is an opportunity to fully honor yourself. And I would urge you to think about it as though you were doing this for someone else who truly love that you love unconditionally.

Because you may be your own worst enemy, we want you to be able to be your own best friend, as a result of going through this course on PTSD. So I urge you to take a look at that please make up your own trauma list so you're not leaving anything behind. But if if things come to you later on after clearing some of this, then I would urge you to add that to your list and then you will know when all these perturbations disturbances have moved on and shifted. So next up, we're going to take a look now at the difference between trauma and shock. Thank you for joining me.